Gary Jr., the Corpse Groom (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} garyjr) wrote,@ 2006-05-01 09:55:00 |
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| Current mood: |  floopy & a little embarrassed |
| Current music: | Missy Elliot - "We Run This" (Stick It Edit) |
"as we were making out we suddenly saw blue lights flashing behind us as a cop pulled up."
so ya michael and i went out "as friends" on friday night. it didn't really take long for that to go down in flames. haha. i first realized this probably wasn't going to work out when he impulsively put his hand on my leg as he was driving us to the theater. i sort of gave him a smirk and he was all, "oh. ya. umm. just friends. right. i forgot." as we both laughed. we couldn't find parking so we just parked in the garage. as we were speeding walking to the movie he asked me if i noticed that hot guy "totally checking me out." i said i hadn't and he said not to worry because he gave him a dirty look or something to that affect so he'd back off. i not-so-innocently said, "hey if you don't wanna date me cuz you're not ready don't go scaring off my prospects." haha. oh snap. omg did i just say snap?
i don't think we made it through the movie trivia before our arms were all tangled up and we were kissing passionately. i felt a little like a teenager; i don't think i've ever made out in the movie theater before. lol. we held hands and i carrassed his arms pretty much through the whole movie. the movie by the way was really fun in a bring it on-eque way. nothing new here but it was entertaining with lots of cute dialogue etc. there was this one asian girl in particular that michael loved. i think at one point he yelled out something in jubulation to the girl on screen which amused the 99.9% female audience, as well as myself. the strange thing is i normally would be embarrassed by something like that but i totally thought it was charmingly doofy.
as we pulled up to my condo he got a space right in front and we sorta looked at each other awkwardly while we thanked each other for a good time. as i leaned in for a good night kiss, he pulled me passionately into a lip lock, using both his hands to caress my face/hold my lips to his. then i moved my body to put my hands on his face and passionately kissed him in return. i was practically ready to climb on his lap. i guess i've had a lot of pent-up passion to unload on someone and he's the first person i've really been into since well you know who. as we were making out we suddently saw blue lights flashing behind us as a cop car pulled up right along side of us. i lunged off of him and we both looked at each other like "oh shit we've been busted for making out in a car!" it turns out he was just pulling a u-turn to bust some drunk guy across the street. we both laughed. as we began to kiss again i could feel my jeans getting a lot tighter. haha. i didn't want to stop but like i said, he had to work so i said, "i'll talk to you tomorrow?" and he said, "definitely, i'll try to call you either between work and the gym or the gym and softball or after." as i sat back preparing to jump out of the car i said, "i think i like it better when we're just friends!" and he said, "what?" kinda sad-like and i said, "oh no no. i meant because we were both all pining for our ex boyfriends we didn't get to make out like this." and we both laughed. as i started to get out of the car i realized my jeans were totally bulging in front. it's been a long time since i've gotten this worked up over a guy so it's a good thing i wasn't wearing sweat pants or anything. haha. i sorta darted to my front door as a realized his eyes were crotch level with me as i stood up outside the car. i'm pretty sure i gave him more than a pornographic eye full. lol.
on sunday i went to see kyle and michael play volleyball in the "tourrrrrnnnneeeeeeeyment" (in lucy lui voice from charlies angels duh). their team "the fighting cocks" won! i even wore my "big peckers" t-shirt in support. all the other teams were openly rooting for anyone to beat their team. i was like the only person supporting them on the sidelines. i clapped as loud as i could but i didn't yell out anything as the other players were openly supporting any other team against them in the finals. but when it was all said and done and they won, i was like, "umm, in your faces bitches." haha. they were just so rude. i mean even i clapped (although not as loudly) when the other team made a good play. at one point they were whispering amongst each other because they knew i was listening. haha.
things were weird with michael all day, i sorta felt like i shouldn't be there at one point. i think he got caught up in the moment on friday and now he's having reservations about what happened between us. i know he's not ready a relationship or anything serious but i sorta felt a little confused. at one point he called kyle and i into the auditorium in the dark and played the piano. it was very sweet. kyle left after like 2 seconds and i sat there watching him in the dark play a medley of pretty sad poignent songs. he started to get sniffly at one point and i wasn't sure if he was getting weepy or it was allergies. the only light that shown through the doorway was right on his eyes as he played. i can't tell you how badly i wanted to just climb over the piano and kiss and hold him. he's really a total package, it's a shame he's so emotionally unavailable. i really could use the distraction myself. i guess i'm going to have to look elsewhere. the last thing i want to do is go into another relationship where the boundries aren't spelled out. i do not want to go back to that place any time soon. so if i got anything out of my relationship with michael it's the fact that i realized i'm ready to move on from dennis. i don't think about him when i'm with or kissing dennis like i have in the past with previous guys. i think i've really put it to rest and i'm ready to start slooooooooooowly again with someone else.
anywho, today is kayla's burfday! so we got some cake for her and i made this really cute card. you see i make the office cards. well i buy a card and then i "modify" it with actual photos of people in the office, sometimes changing the verbiage on the inside etc. i have this great photo of kayla sticking her tongue out to her chin that i put on the little girl on the front of the card. you see the girl in the card is in a flowery dress swinging on some vines covered in roses, the whole card is so girly and then you have kiki's face on her body with her big ass freak tongue sticking out. everyone in the office that signed the card was rolling. haha.
today is also our performance review. susan the vp is doing both of the reviews. i'm a little nervous. the only complaint they had last year was the fact that i was wearing designer jeans. i've changed my dress code except for the belts and the pumas. like i was telling tom last night, these days it seems like the only part of my life i have control over is my belt choice. i'm a slave to my office. my romantic life is in total disaray. my family isn't really talking to me. but the belt, the belt i can choose each day. so what if i want to wear a white belt to work, they match my white shoes so where is the harm in adding a touch of style to a blade shirt and collar? ya so what if one of them has studs and skulls on it. no one can see me because i'm in the back office all day. it's not like i actually have any contact at all with anyone outside of our showroom. oh well we'll see *fingers crossed*
